Eugene Delgaudio: Transphobic Bigot

I do not understand how bigoted some people can be. I simply cannot manage to wrap my mind around how people can refuse to see other people as human beings.

A January 24, 2010, article showcased the bigotry of a Loudoun county supervisor named Eugene A. Delgaudio (R-Sterling). The Washington Post's Sholnn Freeman writes:

At a Jan. 6 meeting, supervisors voted to expand Loudoun's nondiscrimination policy to prohibit bias on the basis of sexual orientation in hiring by the county. Delgaudio fought the change in the meeting, saying he was especially offended by language in the measure that sought protection for transgendered people. In the debate, he called the board's attempt to protect transgendered people "freaky" and "bizarre." In a subsequent newsletter to supporters, Delgaudio wrote that "if a man dressed as a woman wants a job, you have to treat 'it' the same as a normal person."

In response to criticism about his words, Delgaudio read "a revised statement with the word 'it' taken out. He continued: 'With apologies to real-life Tootsies' and 'to all their defenders who are calling me all sorts of names and . . . are saying I should apologize'" (Freeman).

I don't know where to begin. I am appalled by Delgaudio's statements. I am horrified by Delgaudio in general. This is a man has been directly quoted as writing that "forcing the [Scouts] to hire homosexuals is the same as being an accessory to the rape of hundreds of boys" ("Anti-Tax in Loudoun, Anti-Gay Everywhere"), regarding whether the Boy Scouts should be allowed to ban gay men from being troop leaders. This is a man who is so blinded by bigotry and hatred that he cannot see people as people. He does not appear to be capable of being reasoned with.

What kind of person calls other groups of people "it"? Honestly? I realize that "it" is just one word, but it is completely dehumanizing. "It" should be reserved for things, like chairs and rocks. And--putting aside Delgaudio's inability to understand what the term transgender means--what is so wrong about a person who does not dress in normatively gendered clothing? I fail to see why even a man dressed as a woman (who, incidentally, would not be protected under nondiscrimination policies protecting sexual orientation or gender identity) would not be deserving of being treated "the same as a normal person."

Now, I realize that by stating "a man dressed as a woman" Delgaudio actually was referring to a transwoman; he is simply too bigoted to understand that neither the sex one was determined at birth, nor the subsequent gender one was raised as, are indicative of some form of innate, unchanging sex/gender that one must be. Nevertheless, clothing is just that. Why should what a person wears have any bearing on whether that person should be treated with respect?

And as far as Delgaudio's views on transgender people (not to mention gay people) . . . he just makes me sick. Truly. I generally try to ignore people like him. It's generally not worth the time and energy to rant about transphobic, homophobic bigots who are hateful and can't be reasoned with. It just upsets me and doesn't affect him.

At the same time, sometimes enough is enough, and I can't just let this slide. At some point in time, one needs to take a stand against all of the hate that's out there. And I think that in this case, one of the worst parts is that Delgaudio doesn't seem to realize how hateful his statements are. He actually seems to believe that his views are reasonable--that it's acceptable to first dismiss the legitimacy of transgender people's identities and then treat them as less than human, that it's logical to equate being gay and being a child rapist. It simultaneously outrages me and tears at my heart that someone could actually believe poison like this.

Not “Normal”

I've heard/read a lot of gay people argue about being "normal"--about being "just like everyone else" (read: just like straight people). A person called Vince wrote on the Queers United forum, "I dont know what the freaking problem is. Thanks God more people see us as normal. If you only consider youself to be gay not to be mainstream... poor you." This statement seems like a pretty good representation of that sort of sentiment.

To me, this sort of thinking--“Thank God more people see us as normal”--is exactly the sort of thinking that excludes those queers who are most marginalized. That’s the sort of thinking that wants drag queens to not “embarrass” them at Pride. That’s the sort of thinking of those who would disown queers simply for being themselves because who they are isn’t mainstream enough, safe enough, bland enough to blend in. “Those sorts of people” scare the straight people. It’s the idea that being queer is fine, as long as you look and act “straight.” And while we’re at it, let’s remember that often, the idea of what seems “straight” and what seems “gay” is deeply intertwined with gender norms. People who abide by typical gender norms--people who appear to be “gender-normal”--usually are assumed to be straight. People who somehow transgress gender norms are typically assumed to be gay. Homophobia often masks transphobia.

This emphasis on being seen as “normal” goes along with the idea that queer people must hide themselves in order to fit in, often even among people who are nominally tolerant of gay people. Being upset about Prop 8 or Question 1 or DADT or the lack of federal antidiscrimination laws that would protect the LGBT community is sometimes seen as being militantly gay and promoting the gay agenda. Being angry that being queer is seen as a grave threat to morality by many religious people is seen as being intolerant of people’s faith. Wanting the same legal rights, privileges, and protections as anyone else is seen as attempting to push our views on everyone else. Being openly queer--being out and proud and unwilling to simply keep our heads down and accept the status quo--is seen as practically inviting intolerance and bigotry.

In a Newsweek article called “King of Queens,” Ramin Setoodeh questions whether flamboyant gay male characters on TV shows may be hurting the gay cause by pushing the boundaries of what is considered socially acceptable too much. Setoodeh writes, “But if you want to be invited to someone else's party, sometimes you have to dress the part.” The problem with this line of thinking is that this is not “someone else’s party.” This is our society, our country, too. I am a citizen of the United States of America. This is my party. And I refuse to accept the idea that I should subdue who I am, change how I present myself, “normalize” myself, in order to have the rights and protections that I deserve as a citizen of this country. I should not be treating like a second-class citizen in my own country.

In a May 28, 2008, article titled “Why One Queer Person Is Not Celebrating California's Historic Gay Marriage Decision,” Mattilda Berstein Sycamore writes, “the gay marriage movement is busy fighting for a 1950s model of white-picket fence 'we're just like you' normalcy. And that's no reason to celebrate.”

Part of the reason why I dislike the “we’re just like you” mentality is that queers are not just like straight people. I’m not saying that there’s some sort of intrinsic difference between queer and straight people, other than the obvious difference in sexual orientation, which is the reason for the homosexual/heterosexual categories in the first place--by definition, they have at least that one difference. However, our society is a heterosexist, often homophobic, society, and that is the big difference that I am focusing on between queers and straights. Other than having some form of same-sex/same-gender/non-conventional-heterosexual desire or attraction, gay, lesbian, bisexual, and other queer people don’t have anything inherently in common, just because of not being heterosexual in the traditional sense.

Nevertheless, all queers have to deal with not being heterosexual in a heterosexist society. Dealing with harassment and discrimination, lack of representation in the media, lack of the legal rights and protections that straight people have, constant messages that being straight is right or normal--dealing with all of this is an experience that, though it varies for everyone, all queers experience to some extent. And that is a distinct difference that makes queers different from straight people, and saying “we’re just like you” ignores this experience.

To me, being seen as "normal" is often the same as being invisible, as being seen as straight. I'm not saying that we, as queers, don't deserve the same rights, dignity, respect that non-queer people have. I'm not saying that all gay people, or all people under the LGBT umbrella, must be angry, activist, rebellious queers.

But I'll fight for my right to be a freak, to be a queer, to be other. It’s not that I want to be “other” just for the sake of being different; it’s that I don’t want to blend in when the crowd doesn’t adequately represent who I am. And I don't want to be normal until “normal” encompasses all aspects of who I am. When “normal” somehow embraces me being myself, and not being “just like everyone else,” then--and only then--will I consider “normal” to be good enough. Until then, to hell with normalcy.

Queer Activism Does Not Mean Gay Marriage

Gay Marriage
I feel like it’s difficult to talk about gay rights without at least mentioning gay marriage. (I’m saving my issues with “gay” being synonymous with all things queer for another post; there’s simply not enough room here.) It sometimes feels as though the only issues that the mainstream gay rights movement (for example, the HRC--Human Rights Campaign) wants to address are gay marriage, ending Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell, and passing ENDA (Employment Non-Discrimination Act). I’m going to focus on gay marriage in this post; I’ll save DADT and ENDA for another post later.

I’m of two minds when it comes to gay marriage because I’m not actually against gay marriage. It’s certainly not as though I think it should be illegal. I was crushed when Prop 8 passed (even though I’m not from California, so it doesn’t really legally affect me); I actually stayed up until about 4 in the morning November 5th, willing the numbers to change and Prop 8 to fail. It didn’t, as I assume we all know, and I lost some of the hope and optimism I’d gained from Obama being elected president. However, I feel strongly that the emphasis on gay marriage takes attention, support, and money away from a lot of issues that LGBT/queer people face and causes those other issues to become invisible.

Gay marriage should be legalized.
I think it’s ridiculous that so many people are so against gay marriage. To me, it seems like it should be the easiest problem for the LGBT community to deal with (and given how many issues there are with having gay marriage stick, perhaps that’s saying something about the issues the LGBTQ community is facing). Pass legislation that allows people of the same sex to get married (and the same gender and really, any sex and any gender). Enforce it--make justices, etc, fill out the paperwork. And, for the love of Athena, don’t let people vote on it! You don’t let people vote about whether to take away people’s civil rights. Really, now. (Or, rather, you shouldn’t let people vote about civil rights because apparently, people are being allowed to vote on them.) The US is not a country of majority rule--there are important things in place to protect the rights of the few from the wishes of the many. (I learned that in my philosophy of law class--I’m aware I’m being rather vague; the class was a while ago.)

I’m not trying to say that legalizing gay marriage is easy, just that it should be. It can be changed with legislation. Other things can’t be--parents disowning their children for being queer or trans, kids bullying other kids for being (or appearing to be) gay or not following gender norms well enough, people being murdered because of their sexual orientation or gender expression--these things can’t be changed with a simple piece of legislation. We can’t simply change people’s minds and hearts through passing a law. That is far more complicated.

Gay marriage is important to a lot of people, both symbolically and practically. As a symbol, it is one more way to bring the queer community a step further from second-class citizenship, and it legitimizes people’s relationships in society’s eyes. That’s powerful. Legally, there are over one thousand rights and privileges that married people have and often take for granted. Gay marriage would make many people’s lives better.

I can understand the desire for gay marriage to be legalized. All of my life, I sort of assumed that one day, I’d grow up and get married to the person I loved. I understand the desire to have the rights that straight people have. I understand the desire to have my relationship be recognized. I understand the desire to have all of those rights and legal protections. I understand the desire to not be treated like a second-class citizen.

Gay marriage is not the right goal.
Or perhaps I should say, gay marriage should not be the only goal. Gay marriage--whether you think it’s a good thing or a bad thing--is not the magic solution. Making gay marriage legal--even on a federal level--will not make things “happily ever after” for all queers. That might be my biggest problem with how much money, energy, and attention is devoted to the gay marriage cause. Gay rights is now synonymous with gay marriage. And while gay marriage is important, it appears to affect a group of people who are relatively privileged to begin with (mainly white, upper/middle-class gay cispeople who express themselves in a way that is gender-normal) the most. I’m not saying that their lives are all sunshine and rainbows to begin with. I’m not saying that the legalization of gay marriage won’t affect queers of color, lower-income queers, transfolk, gender-nonconforming people, etc. I’m just saying that they (the second category) are facing other issues as well, whereas (in what I believe are the words Felice Picano, an influential gay author and publisher) gay marriage is one of the only big issues facing the more privileged group of gays.

But there are so many other issues that affect other queers’ lives. The facebook group “I Still Think Marriage is the Wrong Goal” states in its description, “We still demand a queer political agenda that centralizes the experiences of prisoners, poor people, immigrants, trans people, and people with disabilities. We reject a gay agenda that pours millions of dollars into campaigns for access to oppressive institutions for a few that stand to benefit."

In a May 28, 2008, article titled “Why One Queer Person Is Not Celebrating California's Historic Gay Marriage Decision,” Mattilda Berstein Sycamore writes, “the push for gay marriage has shifted advocacy away from essential services like HIV education, AIDS health care, drug treatment, domestic violence prevention, and homeless care -- all crucial needs for far more queers than marriage could ever be."

In the same article, Berstein also writes, “the gay marriage movement is busy fighting for a 1950s model of white-picket fence "we're just like you" normalcy. And that's no reason to celebrate." In Queer Theory, Gender Theory, Riki Wilchins writes, “gay activists have continued to fight for mainstream acceptance by pointedly comparing gayness to straightness--by arguing that gay people also are monogamous, raise families, and look gender-normal. While this has been politically affective, it has also made fidelity to sexual and romantic norms the basis for demanding social recognition” (126-127). In a way, the message it’s sending is that only the queers who want to be like straight people (except, y’know, for the whole same-sex love/attraction thing)--only the ones who want to fit into the happy family model and blend in with everyone else--only the ones who are cisgendered/cissexual and don’t make waves--deserve to have equal rights. Everyone else doesn’t matter. Trannies and genderqueers and queers who don’t buy into the mainstream ideal, and queers who don’t want to get married, and queers who are polyamorous (because it’s still all about marriage to one person), and everyone else--they’re all left out of the gay rights movement (or, if you want to be more politically correct and also possibly less accurate, the LGBT movement) when the movement focuses so exclusively on gay marriage.

And anyway, legalizing gay marriage won’t automatically make life better for people--maybe those who want to get married. But those who don’t want to get married, queer kids whose parents have kicked them out, kids who are bullied and beat up for being/looking gay, victims of hate crimes, gender-nonconforming people (including, by the way, butch lesbians and flamboyant gay men, not just genderqueers and transfolk) who are harassed on a daily basis, transfolk who can’t get adequate health care because their health care providers cannot handle their transgressions of the gender and sex binaries, etc, etc--gay marriage won’t do a damn thing for them.


On a related note, I thought I’d add a few quotes from, and a link to, a really (I thought) thought-provoking essay I found:

Resist the Gay Marriage Agenda!
By queerkidssaynomarriage

“Thousands are losing their homes, and gays want a day named after Harvey Milk. The U.S. military is continuing its path of destruction, and gays want to be allowed to fight. Cops are still killing unarmed black men and bashing queers, and gays want more policing. More and more Americans are suffering and dying because they can’t get decent health care, and gays want weddings.
“Marriage is an institution used primarily to consolidate privilege, and we think real change will only come from getting rid of a system that continually doles out privilege to a few more, rather than trying to reform it. We know that most families, straight or gay, don’t fit in with the standards for marriage, and see many straight families being penalized for not conforming to the standard the government has set: single moms trying to get on welfare, extended family members trying to gain custody, friends kept from being each other’s legal representatives. We have far more in common with those straight families than we do with the kinds of gay families that would benefit from marriage. We are seeing a gay political agenda become single-issue to focus on marriage and leave behind many very serious issues such as social, economic, and racial justice.”

"It's the imperfections that make us whole."

Heroes
What can I learn from you
In your lifetime, in what you've been through
How'd you keep your head up and hold your pride
In an insane world how'd you keep on tryin'
One life can tell the tale
That if you make the effort, you can not fail
By your life you tell me it can be done
By your life's the courage to carry on

Heroes
Appear like a friend
To clear a path or light the flame
As time goes by you find you depend
On your heroes to show you the way

What can I learn from you
That I must do the thing I think I cannot do
That you do what's right by your heart and soul
It's the imperfections that make us whole
One life can tell the tale
And if you make the effort you cannot fail
By your life you tell me it can be done
By your life's the courage to carry on
-Ann Reed, "Heroes"

The inspiration for the name of this blog comes from Ann Reed's song "Heroes." It's a really powerful song, both in terms of lyrics and music.

I first heard "Heroes" at the Minnesota Trans Health and Wellness Conference last spring. It wasn't officially part of the program; I had slipped into the auditorium slightly before the ending ceremony was about to begin, and this song was playing on the iTunes of one of the conference's coordinators' laptops. Nevertheless, this song struck me as...just really fitting for the conference.

My heroes. Yes, my heroes include people who are famous. And my heroes include people who, though perhaps not famous to society as a whole, are well known within certain circles--people like Kate Bornstein, Riki Wilchins, and Leslie Feinberg, all noted transgender theorists/authors.

But more than that, my heroes are the everyday transfolk and genderqueer people and other gender nonconforming people who show immense courage and strength merely by being who they are in a such hostile world. "By your life you tell me it can be done."

I'm in college. And while my college is by no means perfect, it is in many ways a bubble that shields me from a lot of the ugliness that people face outside the protection of my campus. Even at my college--a liberal, queer-friendly, generally open-minded place--it is sometimes difficult to be myself. Even at my college, it is difficult, and scary, to come out to people as trans, to attempt to move through the world as neither man, nor woman. It is one thing to transcend gender intellectually and theoretically; it is quite another thing to do so in real life.

It is hard, sometimes harder than I can manage, to stick to my convictions and be who I am, expressing my gender as I wish to, even at my generally accepting, supportive, "live and let live" sort of college.

It is terrifying to think about life after I graduate, just a few short months away. People there, outside my college's bubble, won't have the general understanding of gender that many of the people here have--the knowledge of the sex/gender distinction, the acceptance that not everyone has to fall within the gender binary, the respect to generally let people be who they are, whoever that is.

People will view me as a woman, dismiss me as a woman. People will tell me that I'm going to hell, that I'm just confused, that I'm going through a phase, that I must be a man if I'm not a woman, that of course I'm a woman, that I'm a freak, that who I am and how I see myself doesn't matter. People will laugh at me, call me names, pretend that I don't exist. People will dismiss the legitimacy of my identity because I look too female, or because I haven't "picked a side' (i.e. woman or man), or because they just don't want to deal with any deviations from the assumptions they've made.

And I don't know how I'm going to deal with all of this. Sometimes, I don't know how I can. But I think about the song: "What can I learn from you / That I must do the thing I think I cannot do / That you do what's right by your heart and soul / It's the imperfections that make us whole." I can learn from the people I met at the conference, the people I read about and from online, the people I know. They somehow manage to live their lives in this incredibly transphobic world, and I respect them more than I can say. "I must do the thing I think I cannot do." I will dig deep within myself and find the courage and strength to live my life as myself. I know that being true to myself is what's right by my heart and soul.

"By your life you tell me it can be done"

All of the transgender, genderqueer, gender-neutral, bi-gender people I've met, all of the transfolk and genderqueers and other gender-nonconforming that I've read about--their very lives show me that it can be done. It is possible to not remain in the gender category that society has placed us in. It is possible to live outside the gender binary entirely.

"By your life you tell me it can be done"

My heroes show me the way.